In the midst of broken marriages there is an awakening.
I had one.
It can be the death of your marriage, you or your spouse, and whatever way it goes no matter what nothing will be the same again.
It came down to this.
I had a choice to make. Do I want to save my marriage?
That answer did not come so easy.
I mean yes I did, yet I didn’t really know how!
My husband & I were a mess.
How could I do this alone? It isn’t possible! Is it?
Is there someone who has walked this road who can help me?
Those in my world stayed clear of our disaster.
In the midst of my brokenness I couldn’t see clearly.
My husband dazed and confused as well, he wasn’t the one to answer that question either.
I had to first answer for myself.
Did I mention we were a mess?
There was a lot of silence, and often anger when we were not.
There was a lot of chaos the other woman was purposely causing.
I wasn’t willing to play her or his game.
A lot of drama ensued.
Hit by hit, one by one, by two they came.
I didn’t run to anyone, I ran to God for answers.
Where do I go from here?
There was no answer for quite sometime.
He however gave me incredible comfort for my shattered world.
He quieted my storm continually.
Then the answer came.
The answer he gave me was difficult.
He said be faithful, because I AM: faithful.
What did that mean?
My husband was swinging from one side to the other side.
Should I stay or should I go?
I didn’t make any decisions, I just waited on God.
I fasted for 40 days. The first time ever.
Explain to me what that means God?
Be faithful because you are?
I need details here!
A lot of things to work through in my mind.
The answer came rock solid in God heals hurting marriages.
If your spouse isn’t committed, there is still hope.
It starts with you and consists of prayer, lots of prayer.
It is not simple, yet it is. It is not easy, yet it is worth it!
This has been the greatest journey to freedom ever!!
The greatest lie of adultery is that your marriage can never be healed, there is too much hurt, it is time to “move on”.
Another one probably second on my list is infidelity is my “done” card.
I’ll be exploring more of these in detail in the coming days.